Prolly I've been telling myself that for so long now, that I have forgotten to look into the other side of the story myself. Can you forgive someone who has gone too far off? What are the limits that cannot be crossed in order for you to find that forgive, or greater, the forget, if you ever get to reach that level?
So here I am, was about to go to sleep when I stumbled upon this blog I have once ignored and forgotten. As I click on 'Older Posts', more memories came back to me, and I actually saw the story from the other side; a view where I have once ignored, but now I should have known. Probably then it wouldn't be this way as it turned out to be. Don't get me wrong, I feel (a lot) happier for where I am today, compared to where I was 3 years ago. And then there is this part, where I don't even know where to start saying that I am truly, very sorry.
It was funny, cause when I first noticed this person, I thought my life can change in a snap of a finger. Spark lights rose and things happened, but before I knew it, the sparks were gone, what was left were only scars and stains from where the spark has decided to hurt.
The real catch here is that, I truly am very sorry, and I don't even know how to start apologizing. I probably went too far off now, and if you can't find a slot in your heart to forgive, I will never blame you, because I know, I have crossed the limit of..of being bitchy, I guess.
I cannot imagine, how your life have been after that spark died. But as I read your posts, I misjudged you, and I realized that you meant every single word you ever said.
No, you still are the sweetest person there is in the world, but you have been to sweet for me to handle, and I cannot comprehend that. I am satisfied with what I have today, and I don't regret the minute I walked out that door.
I don't know - I'm sorry? Though I know this may not be sufficient ever enough !
It has been more than 2 years now - can you imagine that? I'm glad to see you move on, and I'm so ever glad you have learned to love again.
...Sucks to be me =(
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